Entry # 18 My Alarm Clock 2

Ortega is one of the best Argentine soccer players in history. Now, this story I heard about him this morning reminded me about Diego’s story. Diego Armando Maradona, to many, the best soccer player ever. As Diego’s case, many other cases began appearing in my mind. Diomedez Diaz, the great and famous Colombian popular singer who was put in jail several times. Faustino Asprilla, the famous Colombian soccer player that played for Newcastle, who had a drinking problem and got aggressive when drunk. Garrincha, the Brazilian star who died because of a putrid life he managed to have outside of the pitch. Antonio Cervantes Reyes, most popularly known as Kid Pambelé, the most famous Colombian boxer because he held the World Championship for a record amount of times. His fame led him to become a terrible drug addict and waste all of his well-earned money. Nowadays, Kid Pambelé lives in the ugliest streets of Cartagena and begs for money.
Once, I encountered Pambelé. This event occurred about three years ago. Pambelé was begging for money to every car that passed by. My brother was driving a car, and had myself as a co-pilot. My brother gave Pambelé $2,000 Colombian Pesos. Pambelé received the money and instantly dropped himself to his knees, while he shrieked a strange sound. Following that, he kissed the cars wheels and the lights. It was a horrifying scene, to observe a former Welter junior Champion of the World kissing anyone’s car for money. Pambelé was a disgusting beggar.
What would you feel if you lost everything? If you lost your friends, your family, your most precious objects, your health, your house, your money, I mean, absolutely everything? What would you feel if you had the whole world in your hands, and suddenly, you take a wrong path and you trip and fall, and the world you’ve got in your hands breaks into tiny pieces? What feeling would you get if you have just climbed to the top of the mountain, and unfortunately, you make yourself fall off right to the beginning, but this time, you’ve broke your legs, arms, back, waist, and your head while you fell? You had reached the highest point in your life where you’ve accomplished all your goals, but the next morning, you wake up, and you’re at the lowest point you’ve ever been. The lowest point any person can ever be. You’ve got nothing. The only thing you’ve got left is a horrible addiction to drugs and the memory of happy days. I imagine that feeling you get after this, would be the worst existing feeling. What would you feel if you lost everything?
I’m a fan of F. C. Barcelona, and several weeks ago, the team was playing against Real Betis. The game had the Spanish League at stake. Barcelona was winning in the first half by 0-2, but in the second half, our team through the victory away and ended up losing 3-2. I felt an enormous pain, a gigantic emptiness, an infinite frustration and will to go back in time. It’s a terrible feeling, wanting to go back in time, feeling regrets, and feeling guilty.