Entry # 20 Judging

You’re judging me, sir, you’re judging me, I can feel it, I can sense it, I can see it, you’re judging me, and that is pissing me off, that is one of the things I hate the most, people judging others, people think they know everything, the think they own the truth, the own the universe, they own me, they own you; you’re making my head spin and my muscles get tense because I know, one hundred percent sure, that you are judging me terribly, the way you look at me, the way your body is positioned, the way your eyes stare at me, your entire face stares at me, your mouth, your nose, your eyebrows, ears, even your hair stares at me, judging me, and your mind, I can see what is going on in your mind, sir, I can see it, you cannot hide it, it is evident for me, I read your mind like an open book, it is easy for me to do that because you are helping me with all those evident looks your hair is giving me, I disgust you, you think I am horrible, you think I am despicable, you think you know everything about me, you think my actions in life were terrible, but you do not know me, you think you do, in fact, you are pretty sure you know me, like the palm of your hand, but, sir, let me surprise you, sir, you do not know me, not one bit, everyone thinks they know me, but they don’t, they judge me, the same way as you do, and it pisses me off, my god, it pisses me off, sir, could you please stop judging me, sir, for a bit, please, I am tired of this, I cannot take it, you do not know me, face that fact, you never knew me, and you never will, I know it surprises you, I know, I see, yes sir, I do, I can see it in your face, but it is true, you do not know me, even though you really think you do, I am sorry to tell you, sir, deep inside, I am totally different as you are picturing me right now, you are a terribly judgmental person, you judge people on their appearance, you judge them all the time, you are despicable, sir, let me tell you this, I know you, deeply, intimately, I do, oh yes, sir, I do, like the palm of my hand, let me tell you this, you are not sincere, you are unwise, you are aggressive, violent, ignorant fool, keep your eyes off me, you don’t know me, sir, face it, you are ignorant, I know you, I know why you did not shave this morning, sir, shut up, I mean, keep your eyes off me, your snare is so loud I can hear it, sir, it is pissing me off, stop chewing your gum that way, as if you were better than me, you are not, sir, you are worse, and let me tell you this, you are terrified to death, sitting here, in front of me, you are terrified of yourself sir, yes, that is what is going on with you, you fear yourself, you pretend you are confident, but you fear me, you want me to think I fear you, now, stop that evil snaring before I kill you, okay sir? Is that okay? Stop staring at me sir! Can’t you see it is pissing me off? My God! Why haven’t you stopped?